Things just got too hard to handle and I guess I’m a weak person. Judge me, honestly I don’t care. Bye.
I’m always so hard on myself about not being a “studio dancer” but then I realize being part of the hip hop community brings so much more. We’re all one big family, no matter what crew we’re from and I’ll never give that up.
Things just keep getting harder to deal with. Even if I have no where to go, soon as I turn 18 I am leaving this house. Other people have it worse, trust me I know, but no one should have to put up with any form of abuse. If there’s a way out, LEAVE. I’ll figure things out somehow..
No one will be there for you forever except yourself. Just got to deal with it.
I look at all the stories of young lives being taken and I just wish it was me instead…
Dance isn’t what it use to be for me. Getting tired of it and feeling unmotivated.. But then I remember this one quote “Dance is a relationship, even on those days where you ain’t feel’n it, gotta keep pushing. Then, you’ll fall for it all over again soon.” It does keep me going back but I always wondering what if one day I don’t keep trying.. Will I be happy or heart broken?
I just want that feeling of dancing with my second family again but I know that will never happen.
“Dancers should dance where they want to be.” Something someone I really look up to said… Sadly I know this is not where I want to be but I guess you have to make sacrifices for what you love. I just hope this pays off in the future.
I know I will never get a chance like that again and it’s over.. It’s killing me inside knowing I won’t dance again.
All I ask is to be left alone in my room but I guess you don’t get everything you want. Things would be so much easier if I didn’t have to live in this house.
Really sad things had to end like this or at all. Well I guess time heals all… and it’s time to move on. Funny how no one knows how I feel. I’m not even sure how I feel. One night messed things up so bad.