Knowing that for a moment in my life I was on the same stage as Mike Song brings tears to my eyes.. the fact that I might have to quit dance is killing me everyday. I hate how today I am struggling to continue to be a member of a crew. I miss the days where dance made me the happiest person in the world. I have stopped dancing to music and have started to dance with choreo.. I miss the feeling of being part of a “dance family” now I just feel like I’m in a constant competition with everyone around me.. dance shouldn’t make me depressed but it does because I know that my dance career is ending very soon.
Dance isn’t what it use to be for me. Getting tired of it and feeling unmotivated.. But then I remember this one quote “Dance is a relationship, even on those days where you ain’t feel’n it, gotta keep pushing. Then, you’ll fall for it all over again soon.” It does keep me going back but I always wondering what if one day I don’t keep trying.. Will I be happy or heart broken?
I just want that feeling of dancing with my second family again but I know that will never happen.
"Dancers should dance where they want to be." Something someone I really look up to said… Sadly I know this is not where I want to be but I guess you have to make sacrifices for what you love. I just hope this pays off in the future.
Damn miss how dance was before to me. Now all the people I loved dancing with are spread out between different crews. Miss you guys so much! Dance just isn’t the same. A crews name means nothing if the people in it are not like family.